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It seems like only yesterday when Love Rain debuted yet it seems like Love Rain has been with me forever. Love Rain has so many special meanings for me… it premiered on my birthday, it is the first drama of my idol I’ve followed from inception till its end, and it’s the first drama I’ve shared with all the wonderful people I have met on this wonderful blog and gotten to know through ECI. One of the most difficult challenges I’ve found in the last couple months is avoiding spoilers every week on the currently running episodes. Although I love spoilers, for Love Rain I wanted to experience every precious moment for the first time personally instead of through second-hand accounts. As a result I probably missed out on a lot of what makes this blog and our group on Facebook so meaningful to me. For that I want to apologize and give a BIG HUG to all my fellow ECI members.
Here begins my thoughts on Episode 19 of Love Rain…
Finally everybody knows about Yoon Hee’s medical condition.
This episode hit a chord in my heart… even more than the usual emotions that most of the episodes of Love Rain have hit. To me, the relationship of mother and daughter is very close to my heart. I had a similar situation as Ha Na just over a decade ago when my own mother was experiencing the reality of going blind. (My own mother was fortunate to get one of the top doctors in the US as a surgeon.) So I understand the emotions she is feeling. My own mother held back her anxiety from me not unlike Yoon Hee keeping her own situation hidden from Ha Na and those that are closest to her.
Ha Na really takes her mother’s condition hard and tries to put on a brave face but in private she’s crying. Joon is so in tune with Ha Na that he is just lying in wait in case she needs him so when she’s crying on the phone he runs to her. Out of all the characters in this series, I feel that Joon has changed the most. The person that he was when he first met Ha Na wouldn’t have taken the time to even listen to her let alone wait outside in his car, call her, and then run to her in order to offer comfort. So Joon really has matured a lot in the time since he met Ha Na.
Even though I have been rooting for the younger generation, I can’t help feel saddened by the distance that has developed between In Ha and Yoon Hee. They were so happy for such a short time. But just as they should be growing closer she is now pushing him further away while he is trying to hold on. This is sad because as they get further apart their children become closer.
I’ve enjoyed the growth of this couple for the moment they met until now. They really have had their ups and downs but have fought through all the obstacles. So I loved it when Ha Na goes to Joon and asks him out using the excuse that they have never really gone on a proper date. When I look back in the last few episodes I don’t ever recall them actually doing anything that could be considered a date. Of course Joon’s assistant, who has the best timing in the world, arrives to interrupt their date plans. I was saddened when one of the worst mothers in the world called not just Joon but Ha Na as well in order to spoil their alone time. (I’m not going to say too much about Hye Jung. I feel that she is a miserable person that has brought on her own misery.)
Throughout this episode we are given glimpses of the closeness these two lovers have developed over the course of their relationship. They are able to be open and honest with each other. They seem to have very few secrets from each other. Joon didn’t seem comfortable with the knowledge of Yoon Hee’s impending blindness and was relieved when everyone found out. I feel that this couple is comfortable with each other and naturally affectionate. So it is sad when the only obstacle remaining between them is Joon’s mother.
This animosity that Hye Jung has toward Ha Na because she is Yoon Hee’s daughter is in sharp contrast with In Ha’s affection for Ha Na. In Ha has already sacrificed what he might consider his last chance at happiness but he is a facilitator for his son retaining his lover while giving up his own.
As a result Joon and In Ha have finally come to an understanding. Joon, even though still hurt from his childhood, is more understanding and gentle with his father which has brought the two of them closer together in a relationship both probably never thought they would achieve.
And even though Joon and his mother haven’t had the closest relationship, their relationship is further broken down by her blindness to Joon’s feeling to the point where he feels compelled to get away from her permanently. This was the first moment I actually felt sorry for her throughout the entire series…
… But I believe with the loving influence of Ha Na he is able to let go of the past and approach his mother. He genuinely wants to work on his relationship with her and no longer wants to fight. I think this is another example of how Joon has changed and grown throughout this entire series. He’s no longer the playboy irresponsible man that he was in the beginning. We have witnessed his evolution into the loving and caring man who no longer thinks of just himself but who takes into account the thoughts and feelings of the people he cares for and who cares for him.
I can’t help feeling that one of the main reasons Joon wants to impove his relationship with his mother is because of the struggle he is going through after getting a job offer in New York. His relationship with his mother has always been volatile. But he also has to consider his relationship with Ha Na. Ha Na can’t follow him.. she has her own worries. Their relationship is still so young.
Throughout this episode Yoon Hee has been preparing herself for the time when she will no longer be able to see. I couldn’t just let this go without mentioning my own personal experiences with blindness. My own mother is fortunate that she hasn’t gone completely blind (she’s lost the central vision in both eyes) but she is no longer able to do some of the things that she used to like read books and flip through memory albums so I understand what Yoon Hee is going through and I know how hard it is for Ha Na to keep a cheery disposition while inside she is crying for what her mother will be losing.
So it is understandable to me that Yoon Hee would want to visit a place that has a lot of special memories for her. I find it interesting that the place she wants to see the most is where she first met and fell in love with In Ha. It is also pretty telling that In Ha would choose to look at their former university while Ha Na would think to look into her mother’s hometown. I really enjoyed the montage of memories of the young In Ha and Yoon Hee.
One of the things I loved most about the final scene before the finale was that Joon never asks Ha Na to wait for him… he tells her that he will be waiting for her to come to him when she is ready to. It just shows how much he loves her that he understands her need to be with her mother. I found this to be a lot more romantic and loving than any grand gestures. Joon is fighting for their relationship but at the same time he wants to give the people he loves time to work out their own feelings.
I’m really looking forward to the final episode and now that I’m done writing my thought I finally can!