Wow…. I didn’t know that she attended LIVE IN SEOUL, so I failed to meet her in person then. And I’ve just learned the truth. During the show, he asked the audience where they came from. One of the answers he got and repeated was Swiss. That’s why media reported eels from all over the world such as Swiss attended his show, but it was not correct. She, Beste answered him “Turkey” shyly. Suk just misunderstood her answer! Suk, you must know where she is from! She’s from Turkey and also a Hanyang university student ^^
Original source: Beste’s Seoul Diary
Credit: Beste from Turkey and ECI
All that we see or seem. Is but a dream within a dream
9/5/2015 This is the day that will always be marked in my memory, wrapped into the warmest smile of the one I have always wondered when he would lay his eyes on me. Not “if he ever would” but “when”.. because ever since I first noticed him about five years ago, and watched his footsteps from other continents I have always known by heart that I would get to know him.. and I still believe this, now stronger than ever.. thanks to his smile..
It all started with a dream I had, not the dramas he was in, a dream I had one night which surrounded me with the happiness that was spreading from him. I could even feel the happy feeling his presence caused.. even in a simple dream.. So it led me to search for him..
The first time I saw him, in a fan meeting, I wasn’t able to understand a word he said. But I could have never been so fulfilled, I felt like magic had been casted on my life, by simply being there, because he was in front of my eyes. Before seeing him I had heard his voice from behind the stage. It is hard to describe the feeling I had at that moment.. In one second my five years passed in front of my eyes, like a videotape and something told me: “you are here! you made it”. His deep and charming voice was the proof. At that time there was a few meters between us but even then I was having difficulty looking into his eyes, I was afraid he would see me. I don’t know why I was so afraid, maybe because my heart was beating too fast.. As if I had seen the guy i like on the school corridor and having to pass by quickly without an eye contact. The same feeling.
The fun thing is.. it is actually possible for me to see him in school corridor as we attend the same school. Even though I have some friends who have got to know him in school I have not had that opportunity because our majors are different but knowing that he is around me, somewhere has made me feel happy always.. Of course there are times I get jealous and depressed. A few days ago a Chinese friend of mine asked me: “Jang Keun Suk was at school, did you hear?” later I saw the pictures that Chinese students took with him, I tried not to feel bad that I was not at the right place at right time.. but convinced myself that “it is not the right time”..
Indeed, the right time was two days after that..
I had a dream before the last Seoul concert.. that I was watching his show from the first row which was actually called ”the green zone”. Keun Suk was leaning towards me, stretching his hand. I woke up before I could hold his hand.
It didn’t cross my mind that it was actually a sign for two days later. The day of the concert. On that day the dress I decided to wear was of green color. And my seat was right in front of him, so I could see even his smallest details that I had not noticed before, his eyes that had a light brownish spark which surprised me, the small scars on his face that made him unique, and his unequal eyelids. I was asking myself what good deeds I had done in my life to be that lucky. Didn’t know I was luckier than that.
I thought I would not be brave enough to raise my hand when he asked the audience about the countries who came from far away.. But to my surprise, my hands moved by themselves and suddenly I was waving at him.. His glances found my hands much more easily than I could ever imagine. He looked at me and asked where I was from and the rest of our conversation still feels so dreamy, he couldn’t understand my answer “Turkey” so asked me other countries’ names like, Swiss? I barely remember that he took off his earphone and people began shouting “Turkey” for him to hear. Then he looked at me with a cool attitude and said “Thank you, I love you”. I don’t even know how I sat back on my seat without even a smile. How rude.. I was turned into an ice cube. As if he knew exactly how i felt, all my feelings for him, my heart that had been broken many times because I had always been so close to meet him, he tried to melt me with his smile. He did that while he was singing the two lines from “turn off” by looking into my eyes, smiling and pointing at me. The cheering of the crowd followed. When I looked into his eyes I felt like he read my story through my eyes in a few seconds. I will never forget that moment because I had never seen eyes which are capable of speaking so loud. Right into your soul. Maybe it was his unique way of saying “I know you now, your journey has finally reached its destination”.
“Thank you, I love you!” GOSH!! those words.. no honey, youre not rude. i dont think anyone can handle that, i’d prolly have an heart attack.
thanks to you & Zoe, no words guys, wow! just wow!
Very beautiful FA…. I am really speechless.. The way of writing is amazing… The encounter and experience are mega touchy… Oh and sis he will greet you in the uni from now on… Just when you see him next time don’t be shy abd say hi
So happy to read about your Eel dream come true Beste. Your Fan Account brought tears to my eyes. I sincerely hope that you get more chances to look into his smiling eyes and I hope you get to bump into him at University!
Wow, what a touching and amazing story! Daebak! Thank you! I love you too.
So you are that lucky eel whom he said “thank you I love you” to!! Keke I was telling others I wonder how you could sleep that night…. Amazing FA thx for sharing!
She is really lucky 🙂
who said i could sleep 😀 hahah
So beautifully written! !!I bet your memory is hundred times more beautiful.
Thank you for sharing this – it’s really lovely 🙂 You made us feel your dreams, and share in their coming true. And please, if you see him at university, don’t be shy – say ‘Hi’! He’ll remember you for sure 🙂
Wow!!! Beautiful FA. Full of impacting situations. Good for the Eel. So fortunate to be there. Thanks for share it dear Tenshy Akuma.
Plz .. Don’t say this girl that how she is lucky .. She created her luck by herself . She appilied Hanyang Universty and worked hard . She never gived up and never stopped working for her dreams. This is not luck girls . Your dreams can’t come true when you were laying down on your bed and dreaming . You have to move . You have to do something. She left from her family. She studied , she learned another language . Beste did her best to reach him . Now plz stop saying how lucky she is .. Just saying “you deserved it girl .. Go Beste Go ..! Zikzin ..!” :))) love you BESTE .. Fighting ~
i am always so touched by your support and you know it 🙂 thank you for being there and understanding me well enough to put a mirror in front of me at times 🙂 hope we can have more happy stories to share with each other in the future.
Wow…Beste..you write like a poet..
Such beautiful account..and such meeting. He knows his eels and the effect he can cause by his presence so he won’t think you are rude…I think I would have had a heartattack kkk
But really you reached your destiny after a long journey…the steps you took to reach this dream.. He knows all that…and I pray you get the chance to meet him at the University as students alike
thank you! i am so glad to hear those words :))
while reading, I put myself in your shoes unconsciously, everyone is saying they cried after reading your FA, I can’t cry right now, I just feel like I’m out of breath n my heartbeat is killing me!I felt like your heart was jumping out of your chest and you’re thinking every one can hear your heart beat! and whole your body was shaking that you couldn’t even stand or walk! hot skin no fever! shaking legs!not able to breath! I wonder how you managed to stay alive to write your FA!!!still can not sleep?
Happy to read your FA. When i read “I had never seen eyes which are capable of speaking so loud” i just remember one episode from You are beautiful drama, when HTK asked GMN to become his eyes and he said eyes don’t speak, kkkkkk
omg 🙂 you have a great memory.. i totally forgot that one, i must rewatch you are beautiful 😀
That’s a wonderful FA Beste…. You are very lucky cause your dream comes true.
Thank you for sharing your unforgetable and meaningful experience.
Hope you could meet him in your University..
Thank you Beste for your beautiful words. My heart is moved by your words. Thanks again for sharing it !!!
Oh, Beste, your FA is so beautiful! You were really lucky. I´m happy for you. Hope you will meet him in the school corridor too. Maybe he will remember you. 🙂
thank you so much! please pray for me 😀 if i see him at school i would like to give him a cup of coffee in the chilly autumn weather.. he must be feeling cold.. you know.. all the rain that follows him..:D
Rainy man hhhhhh
Kkk…that´s a good plan. We will wait for your next FA, Beste. It must be exciting to go to school every day knowing that you can meet him there anytime. Hope you will be able to concentrate on school subjects when you are there. 😀
Beste, my heart is beating so fast as I was there… you really wrote a FA full of emotions ♥
One everlasting green memory
Thank you for sharing your beautiful FA. I saw you so pretty with your dress and your happy face during his conversation with you. Happy for you ^_^
kk i am glad to hear i had a happy face and not a shocked one 😀 thank you 🙂
thank you all for your sweet comments.. i wasn’t expecting my fan account to be liked by so many.. i am also very thankful that tenshi gave me the opportunity to reach out to other people who love Keun Suk.. eels are the ones who can understand my feelings the best! so i am twice happy now since many eels have shared my happiness 🙂 <3 <3 i feel courageous thanks to eel's support and thanks to you i will not be shy to speak to Keunsuk if i see him at school 😀 thanks all.. Zikzin ^^
ohhhhh honey! That was great!
Soo beautiful writing, beautiful experience, and beautiful of you, Beste.. The heart that filled with a beautiful man…
Thank you for sharing..
Lovely FA, Beste. I’m really impressed with how you chased after your dreams to study in Hanyang University. Hope to hear about your possible future encounters with Suk in the uni, just remember don’t freeze when you get up-close and personal with him
OMG you are really very lucky! So nice of you to share your experience with us. Thank you!
Beste!!!!Your words are so beautiful craft that it deeply touch my heart on how you are feeling at that moment. It is so sweet and beautiful moment. Thanks for sharing out your FA. I hope we will get a chance to meet up one day.
Beste, I am amused with your FA. It is beautiful and very detailed. Like what others says, don’t be shy to greet him and surely he will recognize you. ^_^